I kept thinking over the course of last weekend that I was tired from such a long week of appointments, but I am now beginning to think the radiation has a huge part in why I am feeling so exhausted these days.
Saturday morning G and I attempted to get up and meet a group ride at Blue Mountain, but even with our best efforts (OK, so maybe we could have tried harder) we missed the departure time by an hour. It is just as well since I was not feeling on top of my game. We rode for a couple hours and while we managed to find some of the group in the woods for a nice chat- we rode for the most part, just the two of us. I am so grateful to have such a great guy who wants to ride with me no matter what. I always enjoy our time together and the time in the woods is even more special.
After our ride on Saturday, I chose to rest up since I had plans to go to my mom’s for dinner. My brother and his family were in town for the night and I didn’t want to miss my chance to play with my nephew. I was still pretty tired, but managed to find the energy to give my nephew his first lesson of flashlight tag- priceless. By the end of the night, I could hardly lift my arms (not sure what that is all about) and I no longer can scoop my nephew up in my arms to lift him up to my chest. I am too weak…not to mention he is getting really big.
|"do you think we will see any animals?"|
Sunday morning had a lazy start. G and I slept in and decided to keep things simple and we headed up the Aqueduct toward Croton. It’s a great workout but not too hard on my body. I felt surprisingly better than the day before. We headed north from the house.
|Trying to get a selfie while pedaling.|
|I better quit playing with the camera...G might catch me.|
|Big Bird in Flight.|
|Lunch at the Silver Tips Tea House- Post ride.|
It was a golden Sunday and I would not have done anything different- Except maybe take my anti anxiety pill before I went to bed.
Unfortunately, I did not sleep well this past Sunday night, so come Monday morning, I was once again exhausted. I have tried to wean myself off my anti-anxiety medicine, but this may not be a good time for me to do this with all the appointments for my radiation treatments. I woke up Sunday night in a total panic. G is once again, so comforting. He wrapped his arm around me with sweet kisses and whispered “it will be ok; shhhhh-it will be ok.” I could not really remember all the details of what really woke me up expect the feeling like my heart was going to jump right out of my chest.
During my radiation treatments, Monday appointments are a little longer than the rest of them. I go into the radiation room as normal but before they can do the treatment, they have to take x-rays to make sure nothing has changed since the week prior. Apparently I had a 1mm change in one of the 4 settings but nothing that can’t be corrected by the touch of a button. After my treatment, the nurse comes and gets me and I meet with the doctor. Dr M always answers all my questions and helps me get through some of my concerns. He reminds me again of why I need radiation and takes a look at my skin to make sure I’m holding up ok. So far, so good and I will continue to use the Aquaphor as a moisturizer until he advises me otherwise.
Today after my radiation treatment, I had an echocardiogram. While on the Herceptin drug, I am required to have my heart checked every three months. I opted out of the MUGA scan this time since it is more radiation to my body and the eco is non-invasive and done with ulta sound. From a clinical standpoint, it isn't always the best read on the heart, but my tech was able to get a great picture this morning. The good news is my heart looks normal and I'm good to go!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am grateful for all the wonderful people in my life. I get the day off of treatment only because they are closed. I will be back on schedule Friday morning. I am happy to have the extra break in the week and plan to enjoy my morning with my guy on the trails before we head to his parents for the feast.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone!