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Final Ride of 2011
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We are already a few weeks into 2012 and tomorrow will be my
38th birthday! The time between
the holidays and my birthday seemed like a blur. Actually
the time between all of my birthdays can sometimes seem like a blur. Where does the time go?
I use to worry about
getting older, but now I usually just smile when I hear people say “oh my GOD,
I am getting so old!” Getting old is a
gift. Since my cancer diagnosis, age is
sort of game of Beat the Odds for me now.
How many birthdays can I get to celebrate from here on out? I would not mind 40-50 more years please. Is
that too much to wish for?
I know it may seem strange to others, but it has not been until
recently that I have thought about how not-sick I really was before my
diagnosis with cancer. Cancer is and can
remain for a long time, a very silent killer within someone’s body. I do know that I was not too far away from
being in a world of trouble, but I really did not feel sick. I felt great- probably the best shape of my
life. It was not until they gave me
treatments to make me ‘better’ did I truly feel sick. What I am really recovering
from is the treatments, not the cancer. I powered through most of it, rode my bike,
worked, and lived the best I could every day. Yet, I still have a hard time
comprehending whether or not I was really ‘sick’.
I feel like my riding
is coming together and I am starting to feel my strength returning. This has only really occurred in the past two
weeks. We have been able to get some
pretty good miles in since the weather had been so warm. My endurance is coming back and I am actually
feeling pretty good -most days. I think my body has recovered from most of the
treatments, but then I overdo it on rides and working long hours, and then I
feel exhausted. I would like to think
that goes the same for most people so I won’t give it too much thought.
Winter has finally hit the New York area. It would not be my birthday without below
freezing temperatures or a snow storm. That
is more like it! While I do wish tomorrow was going to be 50 degrees and sunny,
I will take the day as is.
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Beautiful day for a hike...20* and sunny! |
So, here is to me turning 38 with a strong 40 or 50 birthdays
in my future!
Thank you for reading.
S.M.